I consider this the biggest problem I face every single day, excluding from the list numerous attempts of weight loss and the hard time I have making any decision
I don’t know what I should do. I'm not perfect and I’m not after perfection; the point is that I hate having regrets
I always think about the best solution from my own perspective in any situation I’m in, the best answer to any question I have and the best reaction to any action that will keep me on the safe side avoiding risks ...
I hate being the guilty one, I hate doing things I shouldn't do; and when I do what I should do, I miss what I want ..
I THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME ..
Sometimes I feel the inside of my head is like a volcano that is about to erupt sending massive lava flows everywhere that may probably hurt anyone ..
I'm always afraid of that moment; the moment when I won't be able to control that volcano anymore.
When I'm stressed, I keep thinking about every single detail. I can't control those bloody thoughts or even force myself to stop.
I hope one day I would be able to speak out or even express how I feel.
I hope one day I would find someone who will appreciate my silence and take care of my actions when I'm not okay.
I hope if anyone will be able to realize that I'm not Okay when I'm not.
"ربنا لا تحملنا ما لا طاقة لنا به "
"ربنا لا تحملنا ما لا طاقة لنا به "